21 Her life changed very much, because when she returned to the countryside she had to live separate from her spouse and from her mother and send her children to a boarding school. After the massacre, she worked as a cook on a farm, but sometimes she had to ask for cassava or plantain to avoid hunger. When she returned to Bogotá she took steps to register as part of the displaced population and she often went hungry; they received support from the Red de Solidaridad and from the Red Cross, although it was over a year before they helped them to pay the rent. They lived in a tin and plastic hut, neither she nor her spouse had jobs, and “it was very hard when their children [asked them] for food and they had nothing to give them.” She lives in fear that those things may happen again, she does not know whom to trust, and she cannot trust the police or the army. Furthermore, “the authorities have not investigated what happened to [her] brothers and [her] stepfather.” It is very important for those responsible to be punished and for there to be justice so that this never again happens. The State cannot compensate all the damage caused and it is the State’s fault that they have been displaced. She wants Colombia to acknowledge its responsibility and to help the people in the countryside, whom they think are paramilitary or guerrilla fighters, with roads, schools, and public health. She would like the Inter-American Court “to clearly show how things are [and] to make it known that if people collaborate with the guerrilla forces it is because […] they threaten [to] kill one of their sons.” f) Gustavo Caicedo Contreras, brother of Hugo Fernando Martínez Contreras and of Diego Armando Martínez Contreras and son of Gustavo Caicedo Rodríguez He is 15 years old and has many memories of his life with his family in Mapiripán, when they went to a lot of places with their father and he played with his brothers. The day his father and his brothers were taken away he was ill and his mother began crying. That day his sister, his mother and he himself cried a lot and they wanted to go looking for his father and brothers, but other people told them not to go looking for them because they would be killed. “They didn’t care whether they were children or babies, they took them away for the mere fact of asking about the relative whom they had taken.” Afterwards the family went to Anzuelo, to Bogotá –where they went hungry and were cold- and to Rincón de la India, where they stayed. When the guerrilla forces, the paramilitary and the army arrived again in Mapiripán in 2002 he was very scared “because he was studying at a boarding school. […] It was very unsafe, there were bombs, combat.” He misses his brothers and does not think he will see them again. He cries when he thinks about them. He feels angry about what happened. He cannot concentrate on studying, because he thinks about his mother who is alone, with no one to keep her company. He fails tests thinking about these things or about something happening to his mother. He feels afraid “because sometimes people say that the paramilitary are coming. The government thinks that […] those who live here are guerrilla fighters.” He has felt rejected for being a displaced person, “because in Bogotá people looked at [him] in a strange way for being a displaced person.” Now he feels bad because where he lives he “ha[s] no one.”