90 with a hood full of gamesán to avoid convulsions; [being] hung from behind by the hands and […] being in a hole under ground […]; electric shocks were quite common.” In this regard, the search process caused contradictory feelings in her, because although she still hoped to find him alive, she was also convinced that for him to remain alive in the hands of the army meant more torture and more suffering for him, a situation that worsened with the steps she was carrying out. When she found out that her husband was dead she fell into a deep depression, and she felt guilty of not having done enough to avoid that happening. The possibility of being a couple and of having a future until their natural death, the possibility of having children with him and the possibility of having a family ended with the news of the death of Efraín Bámaca Velásquez. However, afterwards she was able to handle the pain better and she felt that she could not abandon the struggle for human rights and against impunity. The main consequence she suffers today is having nightmares about what happened to her husband while he was detained by State agents. As regards the next of kin of Mr. Bámaca Velásquez, she expressed that she is very fond of them and meets often with them. She stated that “when [she] hear[s] the father[,] [she] hear[s] exactly the voice of Everardo, […] he has the same accent, the same manner, the same expressions”. She also stated that she is very fond of her husband’s sisters and nephews and gives them financial support, which they use to improve their nutrition and to repair their homes. Receiving economic compensation from important to contribute to combating symbolic value to compensate for the that once that compensation has been next of kin of Mr. Bámaca Velásquez. the Inter-American Court of Human Rights is impunity in Guatemala, and it also has a suffering of her husband. She emphasized granted, she wishes to give it in full to the She believes it is very important to have the mortal remains of her husband, as she does not want them “to remain in the hands [of the army]” and she also feels the need to “have him in [her] arms once again”. However, she has not attempted to look for her husband’s body again due to lack of protection, to threats and to fear for her safety and that of those who help her. However, she still believes that her participation in the disinterments is fundamental to ensure that the authorities do not commit another act of deceit with his body. In this regard, she stated that she “[does] not agree with the army [continuing] this fraud that [Mr. Bámaca Velásquez was] dead […] there in the pit in Retalhuleu, [when actually] they had him with all his body in a cast, under drugs, suffering torture, injected with a gas until they make him swell horribly […]. [She does] not want him [to have undergone] and suffer[ed] all this and for them to have the right to throw him below, perhaps, their military base, under their latrines, inside a trench or anonymous, […] as if he were Indian garbage, according to their mentality, as a symbol that no human being, no Indian had the right to claim their rights. What they want [is to keep him] under [their] boot”. She stated that what she has left of her husband is “his uniform, his backpack and his boots, the clothes that he normally use[d] […], [she has] his letters, […] her memories of him, the ideals they shared, and [she has his] good name”.